Im laying here cant fall asleep for shit.
lemme get these headphones and put on my song.
Letoya Luckett - Not Anymore, been playing this allll day.
haha, nigga, nobody needs $200 headphones, but really these shits is bomb!

Sigh.

I dont know what the hell is up with me. I really do sit and think
like "I'm losing it. I really have turned crazy". Like, if i thought
i wasnt before. I definetly feel that I am now. Crazy as in something
is wrong with my head. not that "oooh baby you driving me crazy".
I think keeping my feelings in, not being able to sort threw shit, not
knowing WHY shitis happening all like this. lol, im putting tears on the
laptop! this laptop is maddddd wide for NO REASON! its annoying the screen
is like the size of them flat screens mac computer. So ugly. But..ah.

Said im leavin today, wipe the tears from me face..if you feel me say..
somebody say i dont want it anymore. Sayyyyyyyyyyy.

If i think my life is a mess right now - growing up wise.. ah i could imagine
what ima be going through when i get older. I dont like to think of myself as
a weak person. But If i wasnt, i'd be able to handle this. Grown in age but honestly
not in my head. I still want shit handed to me and dont know how ima be without shit like that. "I know that its comin i just hope that im alive for it" I just wanna be..I just wanna be..

Hmm..i think this six flags trip tomm. will be good for being. Being away from indianapolis and as much as i miss my phone! i know its good for me.
I didnt tell baby i was going, actually i didnt talk to him today. He's gonna think im ignoring him but oh well. I didnt tell anyone for that matter, really.
People are missing from this trip though! 2. Whores! Couldnt make it. It would be 10x better with them.

I've made mistakes but i cant turn back time, im only human. forgive me, love me, save me...save me from myself. Im fragile and broken.
This song makes me think about my parents. I remember last year my mother saying "Nobody has dissapointed me more than you". And i knooooow i've fucked up big time and im truely truely paying for it.

I bottle all my hurt inside, i guess im living a lie..inside my mind each day i die..what can bring me back to life? a simple word, a gesture...