the shit i do to fulfill my weekdays due to me being a complete failure in life.
i'm really in the library right now. eating. wonder what happens if they catch you?
Spicy chicken was a stupid choice seeing that my throat hurts and its irritating it more. but oh, ima finish it.

think if you wanted to be with somebody you'd actually MAKE an effort right? dont text me during booty call hours and tell me to wake up just to ask wtf im doing. text me throughout the day and actually hold a convo. Reason right there i dont believe shit you say, dummy. If you gonna play a game make it believable, pimp. Hmph, tryna get my goodies. Aint happeninnn.
"Carry your burden i cant do it this timeeee, goodbyeee
but then again, do i listen to my heart or your cry for help?
I keep second guessin' myself, whyyyy....."

Tryna drink and duck at the same tiime, smh. Would be funny if i spilled it all over the keyboard (which i have before, at home). I'd really just walk out like nothing happened.

My headache is coming back, oooohhh gee. Idk whats wrong with me. I usually get sick each month with the s SAME symptoms - not my period. Its weird. I dont think i got sick in march. Def. not in April. Its soo weird. I think i'm gonna die at a early age from some sort of rare sickness type shit. Dramatic, right?

I am sooo happy now days. Not so much happy but content, and idk why. I havent been mad in days, just sick. Which is reallly uncommon for me. Like, really.

Being single is boring as shit. I have nooobody to argue/fight with. To get on somebodys nerves. I have this problem see, this is where 'i think too much' comes into play.

I think i need a guy in my life for me to be content or the least bit of happy.
and thats sad.
I think when i dont have complete control over a situation, a persons feelings - (not really CONTROL but..eh..eh, you know? idk.) I think when i dont have that it bothers me and it picks at me.
I'm really not used to being single or AT LEAST having multipple dudes to talk to..and yes talk.
But now i'm in the situation for ONCE where i refuse to settle for less than the past boyfriend i've had. & i take that to be a good thing..i guess.

I really dont want the multiple dudes type shit anymore, its old, i'm getting older..and its childish. but shit, at least they all know about eachother and that i really dont want them.

I need a guys company or i will be bored with life. Point, blank, periodddd.
Idk why that is. and i wish it wasnt that way.


My mom hating on my ringtone. Twista - Wetter for Ant...ugly. JUST A RINGTONE I HAD TO PICK FROM and the others were for other people, so that was the only one left over. So i'm like "howd you hear it?" "your phone was ringing" this was like a hour after i got off the phone/seen i had a miss call. "why didnt you tell me it was ringing anyway?" "i got disturbed by it. i dont like to think about that song. thats not a song that i think girls should be listening to/having, that 'can you be my daddy' crap." Lol, well..the song is catchy & its gonna stay so... :)