i be deleting shit cant believe how depressed i be acting. which IS the only time i blog. anddddd this fucking shit wont let me change my layout and its irritating the shit out of me.

But anywayssssss. Its so fucking hot outside, pretty..but no. Its too much. I deposited my check today now i'm at the limit i want to be at! Bank acct. sittin pretty. I cant spend it on clothes/shoes so idgaf..which i might just cheat and do so. I have no spring clothes, that and i just cant stop spending when i have it. Which is why i'm in the situation I'm in.

speaking of fucked up situations. Lol..woke up to my phone going off with this text I KNEW was coming i just waited. Shoulda did it first on some petty shit, but you how..I was over it within ....30 minutes. I thought about the good things i just lost someone to sleep with at night time and someone to say they love me. Its all good though. My punkass dealt with it well, SURPRISINGLY. Maybe cause I understand. I always told myself i wouldnt trip over another nigga how i acted with my last bf of 2 years. Talk about a pathetic/weak girl? i asked my friend WHY they didnt knock that shit outta me. I'm not that kinda girl anymore though. It hasnt even been a day yet though, so hey. Right now? "I aint even trippin, shawty. I aint even mad" gotta download that.

O-m-g. I seen Elijaih today..Well I always do but we actually talked this time. LOL@ him just turning 18 last month, i touched his chin where hair is growing like "boyyy where this come from?" "Well you know, since i got 18 it popped up. What you think about it? I look good?" All i could do was laugh. CAUSE HE DIDD. Lord knows i love facial hair and boys with fitteds. And his dressing game came UP. We used to have the biggest crush on eachother -with his 3 year girlfriend having ass - until it got cold and i didnt come around his way anymore.


Uhhh..what else? nothing asssssss always. Bow Wows thinking about retirement.
What is the game gonna be without him?
:(